Please stop here

[Lady Chameleon]

I've got all that...and the other hurdle I'm facing...the big one....a LOT of my former employers don't exist anymore...the companies.  Either that or there's no one in management that still works for the place.  It's become a real tough nut to crack and I don't know what the hell I'm going to do.

But I won't give up.  I'll find something; even a part time job.  I'll take anything so long as I can start after I get my car fixed (which who knows when the tax stuff will all be in so we can file, which is how we are hoping to pay for that).

[Isolde Devereaux]

Jenn,
I believe you shared some Bible study with us the other day and when I came back to re read it, it was gone. What's up with that? We all have things that we study and on here anyway, we need to write about what we study to help us process. So, while I know this is your site and you can do what you please, either way, I would like to encourage you to post your study thoughts, if that is what makes you happy.

[Airy]

I still have it, I just wanted to add some other stuff before I go displaying it.

I hope you're all doing well.

[Isolde Devereaux]

life is good. i ran into a quote on facebook that says, something to the effect that I don't want to go to sleep because reality is now better than my dreams. dr. seuss.
anyway, i think that is one reason that i don't need to fantasy write just now. life is treating me kindly. Im doing a lot of educated writing and developing trainings for people that i present to groups of 1  up to groups of 50.
take care and come out of your lair more to check in. huggs. miss you.

[Malachai]

Just dropped by to hi to everyone and let you know that I am still alive, I will let you know what has been going on and please don't judge me.

I have done a couple of real stupid things, I took an overdose after being attacked again, ended up seeing a shrink, which led to seeing a psychologist which has led to me seeing a trauma counsellor, who is based in a nutters hospital, (don't know what to call it.) I have also cut my arm quite badly, went to work with blood pouring out but no one noticed, so I carried on working and it dried up by itself, got a couple of new scars to add to my collection now.

The guy that tried so hard to run me down got away with it, I was told that there wasn't enough evidence to convict him.

My daughter just miscarried for the second time, I just wish I could find out what makes a woman miscarry so I could stop it, another crazy notion? I don't think so.

Do you want to know what hurts more than anything? It's the fact of the people closest to me not understanding how I feel, what I am going through, am I being selfish?

[Isolde Devereaux]

you are not being selfish. you are trying to survive. so sorry to hear about all the misfortune. my heart goes out to your daughter and to you too about losing the baby. hang in there, and it isn't a nutter hospital, honey, it is a psychiatric hospital and you aren't nuts, you are hurting. huggs to you. glad you checked in. i miss our talks.

[Lady Chameleon]

Isolde...you said it perfectly.  I tried to say something earlier, but I've been a bit on the tactless side lately (so I've been told) so I've been a bit hesitant to say anything sometimes.

Be Well, Malachai, and heal as best you can....that's all anyone can ask.

As for the miscarriages.....the only answer I can give to you is the one that was given to me after my second....sometimes a miscarriage is nature's way of taking care of a 'problem' (ie: developing badly or deformed). 

[Airy]

((((Mal)))) Big hugs, my friend. I'm very much in agreement with Isolde and LC. My heart goes out to you and yours.

[Malachai]

Thanks guys

Hugs back atcha xxx

[Isolde Devereaux]

We can't comment over in your writing area but your pain comes through loud and clear. Keep putting your feelings into words. That is one of the most therapeutic things you can do. huggs and holds you for a bit, perhaps until you are you stronger.

[Isolde Devereaux]

saw that mal went to the hospital today. i guess he is out now but anyway. huggs, mal. we are rooting for you.

[Lady Chameleon]

Thinking of you, Mal!  ((hugs))

[Airy]

Hi there, thinking of everyone

[Lady Chameleon]

I have been so utterly busy.  I've quit playing most games at Facebook because I just don't have the time for them anymore.

As you may know, I moved back here to Rhode Island on March 10th.  I started my new PT job on the 11th.  The memorial for Maureen was on the 13th and I worked on the basement at Mom's (that's where I'll have some space of my own when it's clean) from Sunday through Wednesday.

On the 18th and 19th I worked at my job....I'm really loving it too!!  Love my work!! 

My girls came down Friday night and spent the weekend with me....will I ever come to a point that I don't ball my eyes out when they have to go???  I took them to visit with friends that have children and a birthday party on Saturday.  They had to go back to NY on Sunday.  ='( 

Yesterday I put in a partial day at work....it started to rain and work is put on hold on rainy days.  Today I'm having a hard time getting motivated to do anything.  It's raining again, so no work.  I played around on FB, EC, and here.  I should be in the basement doing something, but I'm so sick of the dust down there that I'm finding it really difficult to get off my ass and get busy.

I've been thinking about you too Airy!!  Been missing you more than a little bit.

[Isolde Devereaux]

good to hear from you. sometimes we need a break. don't begrudge yourself a little facebook or here time. you will get it all together eventually.